Double Digits--YAY!

Today marks the double digit past IUI--10! Getting soooo close to testing and I'm getting so nervous. I am still very confident this is our time to be parents. Yesterday the clumsiness continued with me tripping INTO the shower, and dropping my keys about 15 times. I also went to bed at 9 last night, woke up at 5:45 this morning and probably could've slept for a few more hours if I had the opportunity. Also having some boob pain like last month (which I'm attributing to the progesterone) but also some pains on the side that come and go. I want to think they're real, but I'm also a mental case right now, so everything's up in the air.

Last night I had a dream, though. It was the first baby dream I've ever had. I found out that we were having a boy. But the dream was so strange, they pulled the baby out of me, checked the gender, then put it back in. I'm hoping it's my body telling me something :) I had a dream last time that I got a BFP, and we all know how that worked out for us. . .

Any thoughts?????

What in the world is going on. . . .

So today is 9dpiui. . . still not really feeling anything! What is going on here?!?!? I was certain that everything was great, but I feel nothing. Reading message boards doesn't help because women will say that they had symptoms, then spotting (implantation), then more symptoms--I want to write on the board and say "helllloooo, you can't have pregnancy symptoms BEFORE you're pregnant!" I am also on progesterone which mimics any kind of pregnancy symptoms you may think you have, it's actually probably the meanest drug out there. It makes your boobs sore and you feel all bloated ALL the time. The only thing I've had this month is lower back pain (almost kidney-type pain) and some ovarian pain, mostly cramping.

This weekend something else struck me as strange--I was VERY clumsy! Now those of you that know me know that this is not unusual, but the extreme clumsiness that occurred was crazy! Saturday, I was making chicken salad and dropped the mayo on the floor (thank goodness for plastic containers). My DH thought it was the funniest thing in the world, and kept asking what happened and I had no idea. Then last night we were making chicken tacos for dinner and I dropped the lid for the chipotle spice, knocked the vegetable oil over, spilled veggies everywhere. . . . It's like a three-ring circus at our house right now.

I hope that being clumsy is a good sign, I'll take 9 months of clumsiness!!!! I've also had a bad taste in my mouth for a couple days now, I'm hoping and praying for some good news this weekend!

Day 8

It feels like it should be so much later today, I guess that's what happens when you get up early and go to church and actually get things done! We are finishing watching Julie and Julia and it's all that I can do to not think about the fact that I will be testing very soon (1 week from now). I still have zero symptoms, which is very different from last time--I had all these twinges and feelings in my abdomen, it was probably just gas :)

I've been saying lots of prayers for DH and I to be blessed with our first child, I feel selfish asking for something for ourselves, but it's all I can do to stay sane. I have to believe that this will work and all the heartache I felt last month after getting the dreaded BFN will be wiped away this month with a BFP. I'm still trying to stay very positive but I'm getting nervous as "test" day nears. I hope that everyone will keep us in their thoughts and prayers, we really appreciate them all!

Half Way, woo-hoo!

Today is the 7 day mark, half way through the dreaded 2ww. It has felt like forever but it went fast, and that probably doesn't make any sense but oh well. I woke up this morning feeling nothing. Yesterday sick, today nothing. Hmmmmm, weird. I'm chalking it up to the progesterone, but still feel positive about this IUI.

It's Saturday night and I'm doing laundry and DH is at the gym. I'm just so stinking tired all the time, soccer is wearing me out! All that fresh air, crisp, freezing, cold air.

Only different thing that I've noticed this cycle is back pain, but I think that's from standing for hours at school and practice. Please pray that this works, that's all I've been doing :)

Great Distraction!

So last night we went and saw John Mayer and he was AMAZING! It was such a great distraction from what I've been going through and thinking about. I just got to sit back and enjoy a show with a wonderful hubbie and some good friends. I didn't have anything to drink either (despite the goofy picture DH took of us and posted on fb).

I'm 6dpiui and yesterday my back started to hurt over my right side. It felt like when I had a kidney infection when I was younger (didn't drink enough water), but it was just on the one side (which is also the side I had 2 follies). I'm hoping it's a good sign. I also woke up this morning with a nice case of nausea. I thought I was going to hurl everywhere, I ate a piece of toast, no help. I came to work, no help. Finally 5 hours later, I am feeling a little better but have a nasty taste in my mouth. Who knows, maybe I'm just being a head case? It could also be the fact that 7 hours of teaching + 2 hours of soccer= a whole lotta tired, and that could've cause the nausea. Only time will tell, 9 days until testing, might as well be a million. Here's hoping and praying this is it! Baby thoughts :)

5dpiui, the journey continues

It's 5 dpiui and still nothing, no twinges, cramping, nausea, heartburn, indigestion, upset stomach. . . . I think that the women that claim to have these symptoms at 3dpiui are crazy (sorry if you're one of them, I was one last month). It is WAY TOO EARLY for any of that, implantation hasn't even happened yet! I'm taking it easy and enjoying the ride, well impatiently enjoying the ride.


Soccer season starting has been awesome and exhausting all at the same time. DH and I went to bed at 9:30 last night, and I've been waking up at 4 am the past few mornings for no real good reason. It's like my body thinks it's time to get up, when all I want is a few more hours of sleep!

Is it March 14th yet? It'd be awesome to have a "St. Patrick's Baby," hubby would love that! John Mayer concert is tonight, should be a good distraction. . .

4 dpiui. . . still waiting

So today marks the 1/4 of the wait done. I had some really weird pains on my left side in the groin area. It was a shooting pain and it happened about 3 times this morning. Not reading much into it, but it was very strange.

Soccer season's in full swing, and it's helped to keep my mind off the wait. I really want to play, but I'm thinking big picture, especially since I'm PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise). It's nice to think that right now I have a life beginning inside me, even though at this point it would just be cells dividing, I'll take it! All the obsessive research I've done says that implantation happens anywhere from day 6 to day 12 after IUI/ovulation. . . so there isn't really even anything to test at this point. The boobs are still tender from the hcg shot, but it's manageable.

Well, it's off to lunch and then 2 classes before practice. This getting home at 6:30 really stinks!! I'm exhausted!

What Not to Say to a Woman Going Through IF

Are you pregnant?
Are you pregnant yet?
So when are you going to get pregnant?
I had no problem getting pregnant. . .
It's all in God's plan (so does HE not want me to be a mom?)
It'll happen when it happens. . .
Enjoy being married . . .
You're young. . .
It's not all it's cracked up to be. . .
Stop stressing about it. . .
Why are you so worried?

This is a few samplings of things you should keep in your head and NEVER say to a woman who is trying to get pregnant (and I've heard them all :( )

Dumb Idea

So today is 3 dpiui, and still feeling good. I got to start the progesterone again and that is an experience in itself :/

Yesterday, after school, we had day one of soccer tryouts. I decided that I was going to hop into a group that was short a girl. . . DUMB IDEA. After about 5 minutes I realized that my ovaries were aching and my uterus felt as if it was going to explode. Then, when I stopped, everything started throbbing--I had to sit down and take deep breaths. I'm not a weenie when it comes to pain, but it was pretty excruciating. I joked with the head coach afterwards that I was afraid something might have fallen out :) She laughed. I will not being doing that again!

Still no real symptoms, my boobs hurt yesterday and today, but that is more than likely from the hcg shot I took Friday. I wish there was a magical way to know once you were pregnant, like you pee purple or something. A definitive yes or no right away once implantation happens. . .

Prayers to all undergoing treatment, we are some strong women!

2 days post IUI

I'm already going batty with the wait, 13 more days until I can test. . . it's going so slow and is taking everything I have inside me to not look up every little feeling (and I have no feelings right now, I'm feeling freakishly normal--no sore ovaries, no cramping, nothing)or question I have about the process.

Prayers and thoughts go out to everyone going through the trials and tribulations of IF, it is a cruel process that is determined to make you feel crazy.

On a positive note "spring" sports start today (spring being in quotes because it's 30 degrees right now) and I'm hoping that soccer will keep my mind off the two week wait.

Happy Monday!